3 Jul 2014

The dark




We had just passed the point of
Absolute laughter
Lying there and loving the entire world
While travelling at light-speed
And now

The bathroom floor was alive
I was on my hands and knees
Face inches from the open toilet basin
The glossed brown squares
Once marbled
Were now glass over a lava flow
It was organic and hypnotising
And beautiful and
I’d forgotten I went in there to piss

In the other room
Meanwhile
My lady was in deep conversation
With the second largest of the two house plants
This didn’t last though
It clicked that I had been gone for
Over ten minutes and she didn’t know
Where
So she embarked on the search
Finding me right away
(it was a small place)

We had taken… something
I was sure it was LSD but this one was
Different
At that time
At that age in that place
It was all good
So neither of us cared about different
I guess it’s the same as now in
So many ways
Something is better than nothing
Anything

And even back then there were dark nights
Blinding white days
And the fight to purge yourself
Of one or the other
Because in the back of your mind
You knew
If you weren’t careful
Within the sound of a gunshot
It would be ten years later
And you would be there still
Sitting in the dark
Your heart still full of blood and love
Your eyes like coffee cups

Singing the same songs
Missing the same faces
Laughing at the same jokes
Ignoring the same voices
Watching planes fly away
Without you on
Them

Just
Just
Just
Doing the same
Damn
Thing.